As most of you know, I have been working on this blog, my hobby, for a long time now. We’re actually nearing my 7th anniversary. However, over the span of those 7 years I have not consistantly blogged. I actually started fully blogging again last september. I’ve really been enjoying it and I’ve been working really hard on it and I’ve been having some realizations. If it were up to me, I’d do this the rest of my life and turn it into my full time job. However, right now that’s not an option, so I’m keeping it as my hobby. But that is kind of where the problem lies for me. It is a hobby, but since I want to turn it into a job, I’ve started treating it like a job more. This in turn made me more and more stressed. Let’s talk about that for a second, because I’m sure there’s more people with the same issues.
Some weeks ago I uploaded a personal post where I explained that I was taking a break from university (you can read that here if you want). It has been a good decision for me and it gave me a lot of time to work on myself and on what I love: my blog. I’ve really started to take this thing seriously, since I do want to turn it into a job if I can. However, since it’s the only thing that I’m doing right now and I so badly wanted it to take off, I spent every waking moment of the last two months on it. On the one hand, it’s been great to finally spend all my time doing what I love, but on the other hand my blog has somehow turned a bit into a must instead of a want.
A few weeks ago I was running behind a bit on blog schedule, because I just want to do too much. I now have all the time in the world, so I added regular YouTube to the planning, which already takes a lot more time, but I also started planning much more extensive articles. I had all my time to spend, so why not expand my ideas a bit? Well, it resulted in me creating such big projects and ideas that I didn’t even have time left to make some tiny projects for Instagram. I also got back into the rythm of working on a blog post, but having to write it a couple minutes before it’s supposed to go up. My big projects got me into my procrastination habits again, which wasn’t good for me. I just was too enthusiastic and I wanted to do too much.
My plan for this period was actually to work a lot in advance, so I had time to do a lot of extra things for myself. I wanted to paint and draw again, game a lot, watch more series and movies, and so much more, but that hasn’t really been happening recently. I’ve actually been spending every second on my blog, YouTube and Instagram. And that in a procrastinating, stressful manner. It really wasn’t that good for me. So, I had to set some boundaries for myself. Because yes, you want to turn this into a job thing, but you don’t want it to take over your entire life. If it was a ‘normal’ 9-5 job, it wouldn’t take over your life either. You would have time in the evenings to get to your hobbies. So that’s what I’m trying to focus on right now.
I’ve been starting to plan workdays everyday from 10-6, which are the hours when I can work on my blog. If I actually feel motivated to go on after those hours, I definitely can, but I try to make sure I have time for other hobbies every evening and on the weekends. I’ve also started to plan more and work ahead more. So yes, I am finally ahead of schedule now and I can spend my time on other things as well. That really has been feeling great. I’ve actually been able to spend a lot of hours playing Legend of Zelda on my new Switch. It’s been amazing and I’m much more relaxed. I’m also starting a job on the side very soon, so it’s just good for me to get into a better schedule, because then I’ll have to schedule around that job as well. We’ll see how that goes!
So yes, my hobby actually turned into something stressful for me. I went at it as if it was something I had to do instead of something that I wanted to do. I wanted to do too much in too little time and it took over my life. It was the wrong way of looking at things and it got me in a bad mindset. I still enjoyed working on it, but it shouldn’t be stressful for me. It’s just a hobby! Since I’ve realized that I started looking at things differently and working on scheduling more. It has been very helpful and I’m actually really enjoying my hobby again now! What a strange thing it can be to be focused on something. I think it has to do with the fact that I don’t have to focus on uni work anymore right now. So my mind immediately wants to focus on something else, and that turned out to be my blog. Great for my blog, not so great for me. But now, things are better. Expect a lot of great content in the future, because I am running on schedule now!